Discharged in 15 minutes

... As I got out of the taxi, I walked slowly towards the door. I was expecting a great amount of words from my mom or dad about the late come in. I entered the door and found my parents weren't at the living room. I started towards the stairs and went straight to their room. I saw my mother standing up and my father was lying down. I greeted them both with a kiss planted on their cheek. I walked away from them and towards my room. I took out my shoes and put my bag in a corner. I sat down for a moment and turned on the laptop. To show that I was, indeed, present in this household, I went down and tried to solve the puzzle of the installation of a game my mother is dying to play. She went down and told me to look for a book that included first aid for high blood pressure. and I, worried scared, started to the book shelf and read titles of the books. There was nothing about first aid. I scurried towards the computer and searched for anything that included first aid in the internet. There was nothing that was helpful. All it showed me were things that would be done when in the hospital alone. Then my father went down. He was all red and he was holding his wallet, ready to leave. My mother hurried up to their room and changed. I hurried to my room and got my cell phones. I group messaged my close friends about my father and told them to pray for him. We all hurried to the car and my mother drove us to the hospital.

The first one to reply to the group message was Kuya Nigel then Kuai then Leichan and finally, Ahia.

As we arrived at the hospital, my father and I got out first so that I could accompany him first and foremost to the emergency room. My mother parked the car and followed us in. I was praying like crazy and the prayer started back while we were still on our way to the hospital. As my dad lied down on the bed, my mom sat on the bedside, I sang Tanging Yaman. As the lyrics to the song flutter out of my mouth, I was near to crying but I chose not to let the tears fall until I heard what really was wrong. We waited for a doctor. When the doctor came, he asked my father what happened and so he answered. The doctor finally said, "I think this is an allergic reaction." A sigh of relief came out as I exhaled. The doctor prescribed medicine and after he would lose his redness, we would be able to go home. So my mother went to the pharmacy and bought my father's medicines. 15 minutes after the intake of his medicines, he was discharged and we went home.

The story includes this, of course. The highlight of the night. I never knew that everything was falling through. Kuya Nigel asked me earlier if I had already arrived at the hospital. I said yes. He replied that he was there too. I was shocked. I had not expected that a friend would automatically come over for support. It was beyond any friend has ever done. Beyond all the 'take cares' and the 'God bless'.. It was so much more. Kuai asked me if it was okay with me that he and two other friends come by. I told him that we would be discharged in 15 minutes.

1 hour at the hospital, 1 hour of prayers. And four friends who meant a lot has shown more than enough what I had needed to see. I didn't even know that it was what I wanted proof of. and so, I am ever so grateful to Kuya Nigel, Kuai, Leichan and Ahia. God bless you four always. Take care of yourselves. And never forget, that in your time of need, I, too, will be there... AUTOMATICALLY.

your love

i'm searching for the answer.
i can't find it.
so i look deeper into the pile of books.
but no, nothing tells me of what to do.

soul searching, i am.

in confusion i fall
and nowhere to be found am i.

and i am aware that you are fading from the picture.
and it's as if the lesser visible you become,
the more my smile faded as well.

but even though you're almost gone,
i'll stand my ground.
i'll keep you where you are.
inside... inside that heart of swirls.

and as the notes flow in,
the despair falls deeper.
and the piano digs deep into me
calling, in silence, your name.

each guitar string is wrapped with emotion.
and you held it with your hands...
and left a mark that would keep it wounded.
you left it craving for your touch,
craving for your love.

snakes and ladders

so my family, relatives and i went to the beach today. the water was very clear and the weather was perfect. so, since i'm not in the "talk all about it" mood, i'll just skip it all to the point. so snakes and ladders is the title of this blog because today, while swimming in the middle of the sea, we saw countless sea snakes. and well, because of getting scared, i hurried to the ladder and got wounded. tada! snakes and ladders. hahaha so ima have to go and do some work. see ya'll 'round

what if you

What if you
Could wish me away
What if you
Spoke those words today

I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone
It's come to this, release me
I'll leave before the dawn

But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you

But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

What if you
Could hear this song
What if I
Felt like I belong

I might not be leaving
Oh so soon
Began the night believing
I loved you in the moonlight

So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you

But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

I could've treated you better
Better than this
Well, I'm gone, this song's your letter
Can't stay in one place

So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you

But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do


wala lang. ako'y nakatulala sa hangin at nakakaramdam ng kabigatan galing sa mundo.
hindi alam anong gawin, ako ay umuupo at nakatitig sa mga mata mo.

Bulimic

Bulimia nervosa is an eating disorder characterised by recurrent binge eating, followed by compensatory behaviors, referred to as "purging". The most common form—practiced more than 75% of people with bulimia nervosa—is self-induced vomiting; fasting, the use of laxatives, enemas, diuretics, and overexercising are also common.

you people must be wondering why I put a definition of Bulimia Nervosa up there. well, it's because I'm bulimic. I recently discovered it due to unwanted vomiting. I told Shoti about it and he said that I might be bulimic. curious enough, I went online just to check about it. I found the definition stated above and well, I do binge eating sometimes. I also do self-induced vomiting and fasting. I don't eat breakfast and on tuesdays and thursdays, because of the thirty minute lunch break, I preferred not to eat lunch anymore. so that's pretty much it. i think i'm chubby but hey, i don't do anything about it really. i eat when i can eat. i just hope that whatever i eat gets stuck in my stomach rather than being puked out. >.> so till here people. i have to master my report for MC90.. JOY.

I'm ready to fall

[And today was a day just like any other]

I'm on the verge, I'm on the verge
Unraveling with every word
With every word you say, make me believe
That I won't feel your tires on the street
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away

I come undone, oh yes, I do
Just think of all the thoughts wasted on you
And every word you say, say something sweet
Cause all I taste is blood between my teeth
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away

Well I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop, Keep pushing
I'm ready to fall, oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't call, I'm ready so don't call

I am aware, I've been misled
I disconnect my heart, my head
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words... to say

I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh oh oh oh oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop

[I wake up to find it's another
Four aspirin morning, and I dive in
I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.
When did society decide that we had to change
And wash a tee shirt after every individual use:
If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.
I take the stairs to the car
And there's fog on the windows.
(And I'm Fighting the words...)
I need caffeine in my blood stream,
I take caffeine in the blood stream.
I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:
(And you're getting away...)
My life has become a boring pop song
And everyone's singing along.]

Well, I'm ready, to drop, well, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop, oh
Well, keep pushing, I'm ready to fall
Well, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't call
I'm ready so don't call, oh... oh... oh...

~ so there goes a song by Jack's Mannequin.
one of my favorites really.
and one of the songs that fits my soundtrack for this point in life.
i gotta keep this short though. i still have a report to make.
just some editing, really though.
but hey, a report is a report. i have to master the words i will be using.

song for the week: check yes juliet by we the kings

look em up in youtube. they're awesome.

see you guys some other time. :3

I heart you

I heart you simply looks like this. I <3 you
and yeah, translated, it means, I LOVE YOU.
so many people would wonder who I am referring to. well, I can't tell you.
it will simply ruin a lot of things that's good in my life.
:D
yeah, it's got all the drama but whatever.

I dreamed about him again last night. for the 3rd time. but last night, it was like we were already together. :3

and yes, I know I shouldn't let this feeling take over me. but I'm simply letting his memory do good for me. ^__^

he is practically all over my head right now. :">

and it's like when I talk to him, I really wanna tell him that I LOVE HIM! but i can't.. boohoo.. but it's all good. ;3

I can wait for that moment.. if ever that moment comes. >.>

anyway, that's it for now. :3

I just wanna let it out that I love someone. :D

have a good day people! ^___^

I had dengue... again.

so today, I woke up feeling soo bad. I took my temperature and found it on 37.7.. slight fever. so I prepared my things and went to school. it was 10:00 when I got to school. I looked for my groupmates whom I was supposed to meet at the gazebo for a report that we'd be making. I waited till 11:00 when I finally saw one of them but since I got weaker by the moment, I had to go home and rest. My parents picked me up from school and the moment that we arrived home, I went upstairs and slept. my cousin called up my mom that afternoon and asked how everybody was doing. my mom told him that I was sick and all. since he's a doctor, it's a good thing check-up was free. haha anyway, he said that I might have dengue. he just told me to rest and drink my medicines. I feel better. but I also feel like my fever is coming back. it went up to 38, by the way. and I have cough and colds. I've been coughing practically the whole day. I'm feeling like there's something really wrong with me. after a few hours of lunch, I had my mom buy me iced coffee from fagioli. a few minutes after drinking it, I pucked it all out. including my lunch. >.> so, yeah. I have no idea what's wrong yet. but I'm definitely not feeling okay.

goodnight. I still have to finish a report.

coffee for depression

so I'm sitting down, holding my guitar and typing away with a song stuck to my head.
I might be going emo but then again, I wouldn't know.
I practiced how to play volleyball this afternoon and well, "fortunately", my ball got to our neighbor's house, who apparently wasn't there.
so I'll be getting my volleyball back tomorrow. because up until now, our neighbor still isn't there. >.>

coffee for depression. because I was feeling emo-ish so instead of drinking alcoholic beverages, I drank coffee. BOW.

so I'll end it here. since my emoness has ended as well.

see you

getting sicker by the moment

so today, today, today... how can I start telling you about my day today.

well, I woke up about 3:30 am and asked permission from my dad to go with a friend to witness some turtle eggs hatching. well, sad to day, he didn't let me go. my mom and I dropped my dad off at the airport about 4:30 am. when we got back to the house, I read a few pages off that book I told you guys about yesterday. after a few stories read, I put down my book and went upstairs to go to sleep. I felt fever coming onto me. >.< so I slept at about 6:30 and woke up about 11 am. I went down and waited for my relatives. we had the barbeque extravaganza today. so anyway, there was eating, kwentuhan and all those other stuffs. we went online at skype and talked to our relatives who were in england. it was fun. my cousin's fiance brought her DSLR. and well, lil ol' ignorant me started playing with it. :)) :P i took a few pics with it. and i made them take a pic of me using the DSLR. bwahahaha XD

so now, i still have fever. and getting sicker by the moment. >.< so that's it pretty much. hope i get well by tomorrow. i wouldn't wanna feel bad at the first day of school.

spera te un momento

What should I even talk about first? A LOT happened today and it's not yet even over.

so again, let's start with when I woke up.. uhm... lemme think about what happened. I can't seem to remember.. >.< my dad wanted to go to SM. we went there about 11 am. we went around for a moment then ate lunch at about 12:30. after that we went to the grocery to buy some stuffs. then we went to Hush Puppies to go buy my sister new shoes. of course, my dad took part and bought something for himself too. after that, we went to Ace Hardware to buy a griller for tomorrow's barbeque thingy here at home with relatives. then we put all of those stuff that we bought in the car and went back inside to have coffee. after drinking coffee, my mom went to the travel club. I went with her as dad went around SM to burn off what we ate. my mom and I checked out bags there. she liked a few. she wanted to buy one. I wanted to buy one. my dad came, he wanted to buy one bag and a wallet. we ended up buying a lot... :))


and so we came home with A LOTTA BAGS. we opened them, fixed them, put them in the right places and WA-LA! ^_^ things are looking better :D I bought my dad one of those pillows sa SM that had written on it, "DAD ROCKS".. nyahahaha XD he loved it! ^_^


Realizations for today: While walking with the bags of Hush Puppies on my hand, I found myself in a happy mood. I realized that really small things make me happy. even if they're not mine to be happy about. and small things equally make me go angry even when they're not supposed to be noticed.


on the way home, my parents went all sweet at each other. my dad thanked my mom for the stuff that she let him buy. she said, "Happy father's day, Dad".. and, I might have said this a lot to numerous people that I didn't want to get married. but when looking at my parents go all sweet and considerate at each other, it makes me see how much they truly love each other. and I find myself looking forward to the day that I'd have a love that strong with a special someone. :) <3>

EVERYWHERE: from the last post I made, it might be a little obvious that I'm in love. ^_^ I've been wanting to see him today. even just by chance. and so with that desire, I ended up seeing his face EVERY WHERE I looked. even if it wasn't really him >.<

The Week's Events: A friend of mine went online a few minutes ago.His name is Ralph. he just got out of the hospital yesterday. four sicknesses in one time dudes.. so please, pray for my friend. >.<>

So about the title.. it means, "wait a moment".. it's spanish.. i put that as my title because during lunch, my orders were given last. and it took pizza hut a long time to finish it. i wasn't in a hurry though but my parents we getting pissed off. i asked myself a question just then. how come they don't wait? God said to wait.. but until what time to we know when we have to stop waiting and start making things happen? O.o any takers?

so yun na muna.. i suddenly forgot ALL the things that I was supposed to write here. I had a lot of stuff going on my head the whole day. a LOT of stuff to tell. >.<>

the moment I re-opened the book

how can I even begin to describe my day.

well, let's start waaay before my dreams started last night.

I was still in Gensan and while on the road to KCC Mall, I said to myself. " I'm not going to let myself fall. I will put these feelings on hold until the day he comes into my dreams." and well, that night... he did come into my dreams.

okay so, in other news in my life.

I woke up about 8 am. I thought it was nine but whatever. I went down and looked for something to eat. then I took a bath and dressed up because we were going to pick up my dad from the airport. we were also going to deliver some cakes at Fagioli Coffee Club-Davao. after delivering the cakes, picking up my dad and dropping off my aunt at her house, we went home. it was already about 1 pm when we got to eat lunch. and for the nth time, I ate my meal late again.. >.>

so after eating, I went upstairs and just went to bed. I planned on spending my afternoon sleeping. but my mom woke me up to go to SM. when we got there, we stayed at the parking lot for a while since she was talking to someone on the phone. and BOY, WAS IT UBERLY HOT! the sun's rays hit me like... darn. it just hit me straight on. anyway, thankful enough, we FINALLY entered the mall. my mom was going to go to BDO to pay bills so I left her there for a moment and just went to buy a Zagu shake. anyway, I still waited for a while for my mom to get finished. BDO had a very long line. after that we went up looking for a griller. we're going to have this barbeque thing here at home with relatives. :) you people must know that when it comes to the family and relatives, there's simple NO way that you can find me a reason not to go. :D

so anyway, we just looked at the grillers. searching for a good one. I think we're going to buy one tomorrow. so anyway after that, we went home.

for dinner, we went to my lola's house. we came home about 10 pm na. so it was just an hour ago when I got to go online.

HIGHLIGHT FOR TODAY: I continued to read this book i should have finished days ago. and last Thursday, I went to yellow haus because I needed to talk to Leichan about something. I told her about it after a few stories told. I was glad she wasn't shocked by what I told her. she even made me feel better about it. (I might tell the world someday. but after saying my secret, I'll tell the people who went through it and regretted it that God forgives you if you confess that you made a sin and apologize. you'll even feel free from guilt and you'll feel reborn somehow.) anyway, my secret has been haunting me ever since I told Leichan. I had so many questions about it and no one could help me find an answer. but the moment i re-opened the book I was reading, I found the answers to all my questions. and I felt better. I felt like there's nothing now that can make me feel impure and unloved.

so that's it for now. I'm not in the mood to tell stories. as you may find that my narrative for today lacks detail. :D please excuse me for being rude. :3

so this is the first verse

*playback.. and ROLL*

so my mom woke me up at 5 am. when she went down, I took a thirty-minute snooze. when I FINALLY got up, I prepared myself.

as we were about to leave the house, I sent a group message to leichan, ahiya and enzo-kun. as we were on the road, I prayed for a lot of people including those three mentioned.

I think my blogs are too serious. nyahahaha XD so ima mess it up a little today :D so when we got to gensan, I went on being bored and vain. nyahaha I took lotsa pictures of places and of me. wahahaha

well, since there's not much to say about today, I just wanna tell some peoples how thankful I am for having them in my life.

AHIYA: me wanna uberly thank you for being there when I need you. you have been uberly nice to me. I also think that God might have sent you to me. ^_^ ne, you let out my inner cuteness.. wahaha.. no, seriously. :| so... sankyuuu for everything! ^_^ and don't forget you can tell me anything and I'll listen with an open mind. :)

LEICHAN: duuude! you saved me!! ^_^ I could never thank you enough for that! and by inviting me to that concert, you let me encounter what I was looking for. by the way, you let Ahiya encounter what he was looking for too. ^_^ dude you're me bestest friend. :3 nothing comes between our friendshiiiip! ^_^

God: ne, I know he can hear me. and I don't even have to type all of this down. :3 but me wanna thank the Lord for being oh so merciful and loving. me dun deserve it but you still love me and forgive me for all that I've done. you NEVER fail to make me happy! ^_^ I've asked for your help countless times and you never failed to be there for me. and sometimes you discipline me but I know that it's cause you care. ^_^ my words can never explain how thankful I am to have found you once more. and to accept you fully into my life.

and so, that ish all fuur nooow! ^_^

ne, please pray for Shtuff. and hope that it skyrocketsh! XD

Always pray people! ^_^ God hears YOU! :3

take care! God bless you ALL! ^_^

lotsa LURVE,

shobe pat-wi-c-ya XD

and a small kingdom drowns

hello to the blogspot!
this is my first post here. as obvious as it may seem.
i might not be able to keep updated here but i'll try.

so first up today. my parents woke me up at 6 am so that i'd open the gate because my mom was going to bring my dad to the airport. the moment they left, i slept again. my mom woke me up by calling up.

anyway when she got back, i prepared myself because we were going to go to school and pay for me to get enrolled. after that, we went to my aunt's place to fetch her and her kids. we went straight home after that. nothing much happened when we got at home.

this afternoon, i went to a coffee shop near my best friend's house. we talked there and i opened up. i told her a secret i've been keeping for a long long time. i didn't want anyone to know about it. it's something i'm not proud of. i don't know about other people who's been through it. anyway, we got stuck because of the rain. it was a disgusting experience because the water rose up and there were cockroaches floating. it was UNBEARABLE. anyway, my uncle picked me up and we went to where my mom was waiting for me. i changed cars and we went our way home.

me and my mom got stuck in traffic and in rising water. we passed by the mcdo matina drive thru to buy dinner.

now, i'm here. at home. with my pants being wet and so is my hoodie. listening to Something Corporate and thinking if someone's mad or something.

but above all that's happened, i thank God for another day added to the story of my life. so i say, and today was a day UNLIKE any other.