your love

i'm searching for the answer.
i can't find it.
so i look deeper into the pile of books.
but no, nothing tells me of what to do.

soul searching, i am.

in confusion i fall
and nowhere to be found am i.

and i am aware that you are fading from the picture.
and it's as if the lesser visible you become,
the more my smile faded as well.

but even though you're almost gone,
i'll stand my ground.
i'll keep you where you are.
inside... inside that heart of swirls.

and as the notes flow in,
the despair falls deeper.
and the piano digs deep into me
calling, in silence, your name.

each guitar string is wrapped with emotion.
and you held it with your hands...
and left a mark that would keep it wounded.
you left it craving for your touch,
craving for your love.

snakes and ladders

so my family, relatives and i went to the beach today. the water was very clear and the weather was perfect. so, since i'm not in the "talk all about it" mood, i'll just skip it all to the point. so snakes and ladders is the title of this blog because today, while swimming in the middle of the sea, we saw countless sea snakes. and well, because of getting scared, i hurried to the ladder and got wounded. tada! snakes and ladders. hahaha so ima have to go and do some work. see ya'll 'round

what if you

What if you
Could wish me away
What if you
Spoke those words today

I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone
It's come to this, release me
I'll leave before the dawn

But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you

But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

What if you
Could hear this song
What if I
Felt like I belong

I might not be leaving
Oh so soon
Began the night believing
I loved you in the moonlight

So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you

But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

I could've treated you better
Better than this
Well, I'm gone, this song's your letter
Can't stay in one place

So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you

But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do


wala lang. ako'y nakatulala sa hangin at nakakaramdam ng kabigatan galing sa mundo.
hindi alam anong gawin, ako ay umuupo at nakatitig sa mga mata mo.

Bulimic

Bulimia nervosa is an eating disorder characterised by recurrent binge eating, followed by compensatory behaviors, referred to as "purging". The most common form—practiced more than 75% of people with bulimia nervosa—is self-induced vomiting; fasting, the use of laxatives, enemas, diuretics, and overexercising are also common.

you people must be wondering why I put a definition of Bulimia Nervosa up there. well, it's because I'm bulimic. I recently discovered it due to unwanted vomiting. I told Shoti about it and he said that I might be bulimic. curious enough, I went online just to check about it. I found the definition stated above and well, I do binge eating sometimes. I also do self-induced vomiting and fasting. I don't eat breakfast and on tuesdays and thursdays, because of the thirty minute lunch break, I preferred not to eat lunch anymore. so that's pretty much it. i think i'm chubby but hey, i don't do anything about it really. i eat when i can eat. i just hope that whatever i eat gets stuck in my stomach rather than being puked out. >.> so till here people. i have to master my report for MC90.. JOY.